Wednesday, October 7, 2009

9) NeverSayNever♥

missed me?:$
again i'm reeeeeeeeally sorry!

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previously:



ga3aadna swaalef ou the7ekkk, until they called for their flight.. wa9aalna'houm laman the musafereen gate ou all of our tears gushed expectedly making rivers down our faces. it was a real tragic moment.. and so the film hndey started. the kisses and hugs. the laughs and tears.


i'm starting a whole new page.


the word "new" kept ringing in my ears.


ughh, how i hate change.


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i called rajo to pick me up mn elmaa6ar, he parked the car ..

i was gonna awa9el jana 7ag bait'houm

the drive mn el airport laaay bait jana, was really silent.

bs it was a comfortable kind of silence, not the akward kind

as soon as i got home, i signed in on msn .. i waited for about an hour for him to sign on, but with

no hope i jumped into bed and slept peacefully

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I felt the sun rays flowing through the curtains and into my eyes. I heard linda's voice coming

from downstairs, and i smelt the rich scent of coffee. Then, I furiously woke up and tiptoed to see

if my parents were in their room. I sneaked a glance, and I was unsatisfied with the comeback.

But what was I really thinking? ofcourse they weren't here. Are the EVER here?


I headed back to my room.. running into the bathroom and doing whatever I was supposed to

do. I put some mascara and blue eyeliner on, and some labello chapstick. Grabbed my "The

Ramones" white shirt, and slipped on my light blue ultra-skinny jeans. I wore my black Chloe'

jelly sandals, and took my over-sized black balanciaga bag, and dropping random stuff i'll be

needing in it. Leaving my hair with the natural choice of plain wavy. Called rajo to pull back the

car.


As I was scurrying down the stairs, I accidently hit my head on the wall. Which caused this to happen:

Linda: "Ayoooo shougaa why you no pay attention to wear you walk? you always bump into this and that! and wear are you going?"

Shouug: "i'm going to meet my friends in avenues for a movie, and then grabbing lunch later on"

Linda: "nooo you first need to eat food now!"

Shoug: "oooh linda no please don't do this, i'm already late wallah"

Lindaaa: "then take coffee at least you put something in your stomach! you become very thin these days, i don't like it"

I took the coffee casually and raced to the door while saying

Shougg: "thankyouu linda! byee, see you!"

Lindaaa: "byee shouga! you be gd girl ok!"


I flinged the door open and laughed to myself crazely with what Linda said .. mee? a good girl? yeah right!

On the way to avenues, I kept thinking about my life, and the people in it. I miss Reemo already,

but what can I do, sit in my room and grief all the time. And if Reemo saw me in that way, she

won't be happy. Plus, I said that I'll start a fresh, white, new page. I sighed to myself silently.

And why do I suddenly feel all mellow and soft right now? Since when was I like that? Ugh, it

must be the sudden empty and hallow feeling of what Reemo has left behind.


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If I tell you this, you might think that I'm lying to you, but I'm not!

I, Shoug Al-Flani, actually had fun with MY highschool friends that aren't in our "square", jana,

lulu, reemo, and me, and i don't want to be all self-centered .. because I'm not! Anyway, I really

did have fun. No no, wait, scratch that. I actually had a BLAST! aren't you happy for me? Well,

I'm kind of happy for myself. Since I haven't been really a sociable person ever since I met my

"square". But I'm really glad that I took the chance of spending time with them, and getting to

know them better.


After finishing our lunch in Lenotre, I tiredly went back home and spent time with my loving

brother;p. Although I have to confess, that I really did miss him this past week.. since I was busy

with Reemo's move and all, I totally forgot about my brother!


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I signed on msn, and chatted with you-know-who. 7amany. And yes, I have to say that I also did

miss him! Bss 6ab3aan I won't say that to him, I'm not that crazy. I miss his smile actually.

Looks like I'm paying Luulu a visit soon, hopefully!

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Today I'm going to go to Lulu's house. Lucky me? yeah! Envying me? I 7ada can feel it;p

Bss we aren't staying eb bait'houm 6oouul elyouum, akeed benrou7 moukan!

Ou senior year is gonna start.. after 3 weeks! I'm excited, I really am!

And now let me describe what I'm wearing 7ag baiit Lulu. Ouu we're going 7ag Slider's for dinner

later on. So lazem shwaay akshaakh;p

I wore beige high-wasted pants, with a black ruffled top. Contrasted with classic black

Louboutins pumps, and a black Miu Miu clutch. While putting MAC's red lipstick and adding a

gloss on top to give it a shine. Applying black eyeliner, mascara, and blush. I straightened my

hair and I fixed it into a sleek pontytail.

And I have to admit that I do look good.


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Lulu's house


I was busy painting my toe nails in bold maroon nailpolish. While sitting on the other side of the

couch was Lulu that was so mendaamja in Grey's Anatomy that I had to turn off the TV to get

her to change her clothes so we can go to Slider's. Ouch, was that my stomach grumbling? It was.

I disractedly unlocked my BlackBerry and ga3d at3abaath fe while sitting alone bel 9aala.


Did I just feel that the main door just opened and someone stepped in, or was i imagining? I

slowly lifted my head up to see ...




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Long 9aa7? etha geltaw la2 tara I'll drag you mn ethounkoum ou ashnaqkoum with an electricized wire :D

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

BKKK ;]] + The Hills?

guess who this is? ... britney spears? noooooooo guess again ;p
it's DREAAAAAAAAAMER!

anywayys the reason laish i wasnt posting was cuz eb 9ara7aaa i started thinking .. A LOT. umm ashya2 shwayyy personal fa la tetlaigoufoun :P no jk bs 9j it's personal so dont ask mn9eji.

and my thoughts somehow led me to like an almost-gonna-delete-my-blog thought, bs hopefully i won't .. not anytime soon i think;p

elmouuhem .. how's school/jam3a so far? :DD

for me .. I LOVE IT!

btw don't expect lots of posts hal shahaar .. i'm sorry. bs i'll try my best i promise (;

ou umbaiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
SEMA3TAW ENA THEY WON'T YNAZLOUN THE HILLS (tv show) ANYMORE?!!!!!!!!!!!! :

IF THEY DO WALLAH I'M GONNA GO 7AG EL DIRECTOR W AKHETH RAAASA AND I'M GONNA BUMP IT ON FOUR WALLS MADE OUT OF PINS STUCKING OUT SO I CAN SMASH HIS BRAIN! AND THEN I'M GONNA GET A SAW AND LIKE CUT HIS HEAD OFF AND THEN FEED IT TO THE DOG ELY EB OUR WAFRA!!

and writing this down makes me feel a little better;p

ou etha ay a7aad y3aref shay 3an shsalfat the hills' issue pleaaaaaaase goulouli cuz i have anger management problems and i'm not afraid of using it to do something to them (: !!

over and out (;

Saturday, September 5, 2009

8) NeverSayNever♥ {dedicated to Y.O.U}

umm sorry 6awaalt bs i was busy wayed.. i love you :D


and this is for someone wayed 3azeez 3alaaai;* .. and i know that you read this "she" told me.. ou atwaqa3 you knw yourself ;p .. umm ou fashla 7ada, ou i hope you're feeling great enshallah :P




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And the days passed fast as we grew closer together day by day. Msn, facebook.. the whole nine yards.



Reemo is gonna move to ireland 3ugoub bacher, and i'm trying my best to erase the miserable day-to-come from my memory.



And the sleepovers are endless between me and reem, since we don't want to waste one second of our time together. 24/7 together. and i MEAN it.



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THE DAY OF REEM'S FLIGHT.




I woke up extra early, since reem's flight was at 8;00pm. I told Linda to make strawberry and chocolate tarts for breakfast. YUM. but i still can't get over that little part that hurts me so hard when i think of reem moving out.

pain in my heart.


pain in my stomach.


pain in my chest.


and that little pain in my head.




But i got this day all figured out, we're gonna have the best time EVEEEEEEEEEEEEEER!

As i woke reemo up from her khyaas sleep, and as she went to the WC to wash up. I started thinking about 7amany. i feel like.. he's my best friend. I feel like i can tell him anything, like there were no borders. but there were borders, borders that only i knew about. and that i can't tell him anything.. not anything at least. i gotta clear my head, i have got to tell someone about 7amany.


I made up my mind, and i'm gonna tell reem all about him, and that i lied to her and to jana and lulu. she's the one that's gonna understand me, at least i hope she will.


(Btw la tes2eloun laish strawberry and chocolate tarts for breakfast.. tadroun shkther meshteheet'houm? *e7mm naqza* kha9atan eli mn paul .. 7ada worth dying for;$)



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Shoug: reemo



Reem: haaa (so mndaamja bl ryouug)



Shoug: reeeeeem



reem: bssech 7aana ha? shtabeen?



shoug: bagoulech shay



reem: mhmmmm...



shoug: bagoulech shay ..



reem: ee?



shoug: sm3eeny bagoulech shay WAY3A!




reem: ya7mara ga3d asmaa3 haa shtabeen?




shoug: umm .. tara ...




reem: khal9eenaa




shoug: ouuuuush! tara i still didn't delete or block 7amany mn msn, bs i deactivated my fb ams belail



i said really fast, in one breathe.




reem: you didn't?




shoug: umm .. laa2 (while fdgeting eb her clothes)




reem: 7elfaay?




shoug: oqsemm bellah (salwa el m6airey accent;p)




reem: umbaaaaaihh!! ya3ny you still talk to him?




shoug: shrayech .. ya3ny EE !




reem: wallah ma3areff shagoul .. bs ya3ny why did you lie to me? tadreen ena i won't say a thing..




shoug: madry wallah madry .. i messed up ;s





reem: umm enzain laish ma sawaiteela?





shoug: e7mm .. aa ... ya3ni *blushing*





reem: you like him?





shoug: ee 7ada!





reem: awww etshawgeen maalat 3alaiich .. enzain do you feel like everything is gonna be alright laman you talk to him?





shoug: 7ad ouumaaa yebtehaaa yaaaiba!





reem: a9laa7 akoun therapist ya3ny?





shoug: chub ;p .. enzain haa ya3ny what do you think?





reem: if you feel ena it's the right thing to do .. 3ayal i can't say a word about it





shoug: umm ..





reem: as long as you're happy .. i'm happy (and she smiled sincerely)





shoug: a7ebeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeech !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *rushes over and hugs her*





reem: kaaaaaaaaaak ana akthaar yal haabla.. wallah madry shloun barou7 ireland bedounech





shoug: (teary eyes)





reem: bs chuub la tsaween manaa7a! emshay ensaawy shaii for the last hours eb kuwait (;





shoug: haaaaya beena :D





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to say enaaa eftaraaiina kl el kuwait kan shwayyaaa .. re7na kl moukan tetkhayelouna, until we were completely exhausted. radaiina el bait ou badaalt bser3a. i wore a red polo dress ma3a a burberry classic cross bag, ou cute leather black flats, and off we went to the airport.



we met her family eb starbucks hnaak, ou in came jana and lulu looking like fashionasta's as they truly are. 9a3aadna ou ga3adna eb a table foug ou reem's family kaanaw ga3deen ta7at.




ga3aadna swaalef ou the7ekkk, until they called for their flight.. wa9aalna'houm laman the musafereen gate ou all of our tears gushed expectedly making rivers down our faces. it was a real tragic moment.. and so the film hndey started. the kisses and hugs. the laughs and tears.



i'm starting a whole new page.


the word "new" kept ringing in my ears.


ughh, how i hate change.



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LONG? :D

btw i didn't edit it, fa etha fe badleyaaat 7awlaaw tefhemoun'houm ;p

Sunday, August 23, 2009

7) NeverSayNever♥

chnaaa el postaat gamaat tnaage6 3alaikoum;p? chnkom t7ebouny wayed 3ashan i'm posting a lot? chnkoum KLKOUM BETSAWOUN COMMENT? YES? OK THANKYOU:D;*


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We arrived eb Nino's ou we ordered pizza margarieta, mini hamburgers, and french fries.

As they brought the food ..


Reem: umbaaay 3ad 7ady you3aana!



9ale7: entay metta mu you3aana reemo?



Reemo: 9aloo7 eskett ou eblaa3! zaqoum enshallah(:



Shoug: allaaah elhumburgers elyoum 6a3am'houm extra yummy!



i was so mndaamja eb aklyy... faja'a 7asait 9alou7 ygoum mn kerseyaa. bs i was to occupied by eating 3ashan alefett shsalfetta. 7asaait reemo ga3d tnaghezz feeny, laffaaait wayhyy.. wlaa TRARARARARARARRA 7AMANY!!! :D



what a pleasent day?



ya raaby ana laish wayedd lucky chethy?(:




GA3D YSALEMMM 3ALA 9ALOU7 EKHOUYYY!! :



LAAAAF WAYHAAAA, SHIT SHAAAFNY!! :S



he's coming my way .. oh no. bser3a khal amesh my mouth bel napkin ou a9eer tekaana;p



7amany: hala shoug, shlounech?



shoug: ahlaaan.. wallah bkhair enta shlouneck?



7amany: tamaam



9aloo7: 7amany t3areff shougo?



7amany: ee, ehya kaanat eb bait lulu laman ana yeetle'houm hnaak.



9aloo7: ahaaa..



shoug: 7amaany hathy my sis reem.



7amaany: shlounech reem? *grinning*



waay zouqa;$



reem: good ..



7amany: 9aloo7 tawny adry ena 3endek khawaaat



9ale7: eee shouga ekhty, bs reemo mou ekhty




7amany: ha 3ayal?;s .. taw'ha shoug gayla ena reem ekhet'ha




shoug: *giggling* laa2 reemo refeeejty bs chn'ha ekhtyy;p




7amaany: ahaa 3abaly ekhtech




reemo: hehe laa'a laa'a ;p




7amany: yallah ana akhaleekoum.. 9aloo7 ha dwaneyaat khalood elyoum ok?




9ale7: ee afaa 3alaik.




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daaamn! isn't he hot or what?:o




kan labess grey A&F training pants ma3a a ralph lauren shirt .. ou his hair kan shway 6aayel bs lay foug. i dont know how to explain it, bs he was H O T none the less.





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we9aalna elbait..



shoug: reemou betnameen 3ndna today?



reem: madry



shoug: enzain kaifech tara ana banaam now so you're either sleeping over or not.. lazzem you choose AL7EEN



reem: yallah anaam 3ndekoum maly khelg aredd elbait;s



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gam n6aale3 prison break since reemou ga3d t7enn(:


bs she slept halfway through the episode.


and here i am, logging on facebook..


..

*checking online friends on fb*



ughh he isnt online!

khala9 3ayal i'll leave the laptop on standby.



and off i dozed to sleep 3al couch.




PCHUUUQ (chayaaktaw 3ala the fb chat's sound laman ye6la3 a new window.. wallah chethy the sound;$)



Abdulrahman Al- Flani:

shadaan yallah namaay 6al3ay cham elsa3a;s what are you doing online? 3endech a checkup bacher el9eb7 mou? yallah namaay!



i read the msg, bs maaany gadra aba6ell my eyes.. sorry 7aamany bs i'm gonna have to ignore you!


and i went right back to sleep.




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LONG? :D

Saturday, August 22, 2009

6) NeverSayNever♥

Previously:

Lulu: 7amani is my first cousin!

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Lulu: kelkoum betnamoun eb baitna elyoum ou we're gonna figure out how to deal with this! even if it means that we don't sleep at all!

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So at last we all agreed that i should block and delete him right away laman aredd elbait. considering that it was the best choice, it was also VERY easy for me. i think.




I went home and signed in on msn .. he wasn't online.


I looked for his nickname in my msn list..



There he was.


I right clicked his nickname



BLOCK. *click*


DELETE.........



come on shouga DELETE HIM!



i kept thinking for 15 minutes, and then decided that i'll delete him.. SOON.



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*TRIIINGGGG**TRIIIIIIIIIIIIING*


efffff who set on the alarm?


i closed my eyes tightly



Reem: 9aloouu7 ya 7maar ana awareeek



i heard the screaming mn ta7aat



9alou7: chuub la tkhaaleeny al7een ayeech ou am7e6echh;p



Reem: at7adaak(:





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I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth .. did my business ou i was still hearing 9ale7 and reem's 9raakh mn ta7aat ... waay hathoul ez3aaaj ou may 3arfoun yasketoun.



Shoug: haaaiy entaw bs gelabtaw rassyy!!! 9raakh mn 9ebaa7 allah khair



Reemo: wallah .. enzain .. WALLAH ena ehwa ely bdaaa



Shoug: haha enzain khala9 9adagtech mou lazzem ta7lefeen khamseen alf marra;p



9alouu77: yallah nino's?



Reemo: fougaaa!

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I changed my clothes ou wore a navy knee length marc jacobs dress ma3a my miu miu off-white cross bag.



and off we went to nino's



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9aloou7's phone rang ..


"alooo .. halla 7mayen, laa enta eb nino? ee yallah ana bel 6ereej.. haa la magdar, ee ana ma3a ekhty ou refeejat'ha .. ahaa .. ee bs 3ugoub ma ared'houm elbait, ee khala9 ok.. faman ellah"



7amany?

why do i keep hearing his name wherever i am. iff, i must be imagining.


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reemou: *whispering* did you delete 7amany?


shoug: haa .. ee ee, i deleted him ams


remou: kan online?


shoug: la2



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i hate lying to reem! bs i just can't bring myself to delete him! i'm so curious about him.. i want to know more of him..



ifff, god help me.







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